Friday

Yesterday´s examination went fine, I´m happy with my presentation. 

I have located 2 doors! I found them in my attic, at first I was gonna steel them, but I decided to ask my neighbours and they said I could have them! I just need someone with a car to help me move them to Konstfack so I can start working on them.

I have not yet had a sugarfree day...

For a long time I have been thinking about making art of my pain. (I have a chronic rheumatic disease that plagues my body with pain every day). I dont really know how to visualise pain. During years of medical examinations and tests (when I was a teenager) I was forced to explain the different pains in words (sharp, stabbing, fretting, galling, annoying, burning, numbing, perennial, wearyingly and so on), so thats what I know, but I have never communicated pain in images. 

I guess Frida Kahlo´s paintings express a lot of pain, any ideas anyone?

Sunday

Today I took photos of my auntie identity. Now I did 8. Im happy about the project so far, everything is going well. At first it annoyed me that I wouldnt be able to take all the photos myself, but now I like that it is different people that happen to be around when I am the identity and have my camera with me. I like that it is my identity through others views (mixed with mine since it is me who decide when the photos are to be taken), and I like that the pictures has different styles. 

Wednesday

Now everything feels much better! My first idea for my project was to burn a identity map on a wooden door, I started to write down lots of thoughts but I couldnt seem to start with the door. Just the thought of that big door filled me with anxiety. But...

last week thursday I had an epiphany! Why make it difficult for myself when it doesnt have to be? I was thinking about multiple identity, how we, humans, has many different roles that we are always moving inbetween. For example I am a mother, a student, a girlfriend, a museum teacher, a daughter and so on, and my idea is to portrait myself, through photography, when I am all theese different identities. So far I have 32 identities. 

I started already, at the moment I shot 6 identities and are currently working on them.

Happy happy joy joy!

I havnt killed the door, I just left it for a while.